So first I thought to name this post as random musings, but then could find that my every post is sort of that one. So today again lot of thoughts came to my mind and I was feeling tempted to write it down. You know the airy Libra mind cannot keep quiet at all. Even when staring at you, there would be a complete algorithm getting executed in her mind. So beware ;) Someone similar is Gemini, another air born, and like a twin to Libra. I will have more on this on my upcoming posts.
Ha, the usual deviations from topic sort of thing, yes its here too. Please excuse :D
Today while walking alone through the streets, which is part of my weekend fitness, I was thinking about myself, and how much I have improved as a person from what I used to be before. I was so weak like a flower, which gets torn away in a small push of wind. Today I am strong enough to make me feel proud of myself. I do break down and cry a lot, I ever wonder my talent to come out if it soon myself. The motto I have in such situations helped me a lot. "If people left, let them, and if they stayed let them. I don't feel guilty or regretted , as when they were part of my life, my love had not even a slightest dishonesty. If they failed to understand me or of they don't care, they don't deserve my trust and love and of course they couldn't afford the precious one".
That's the reason, if you ask who is my model person, I would say none, even though I have inspired from many, I never set a goal comparing myself with another person. All I wanted to be is a better person than myself , as I said, here I am reiterating.
One of my friends once said, "Swathy, you are a Gem! that everyone desired to be their's, but you are so precious that they couldn't afford, Yes my love is one of a kind and those who got it are damn damn lucky :)
I have got mixed reviews about myself, from people about me and everything I embraced as a chance, for me to improve day by day. Even the negative comments I accepted, even though I was feeling a little irritated listening to it first. Yes its human to have both sides. But I worked hard on my negatives and I can see the change reflected. I don't mean I am a perfect person now, truth being I am no where perfect, but every day I am trying to become a better person of myself the day before. One of such comments I got is I will take the lead always, not giving chances to people with me and tries to show off. I wonder, do they mean I am a flaunt ;) No pun intended please! Of course I will take the helm, if I feel my flock doesn't have the capability to take up the driving seat yet. Otherwise I would be so glad to take a nice nap in one of the couchy seats behind, if I can trust my driver ;)
But some people were so focused in putting me down, purportedly, that they just wanted to prove me bad and envied whatever I was able to do even after going through all storms in my life which they can never even think of. Or they would be too egoistical about themselves, that they see problem in what others do. Ha the noxious ones in my life!! Even if I realized their hidden agenda too late, I don't give a dang about it anymore.
Something caught my mind just now while writing, don't know its somewhat related and thought of penning down. Most guys make use of this funny statement, that women would always have problem with another woman. Yeah, we laughed at the fun behind it. But that's not the truth. I have lot of quality friends who are women, who were not having any misery to show how much they appreciate me. Likewise, I do appreciate people with quality. Here the respect is not given, its something like earned by their character. So its not about being a man or woman is the problem, the problem is how open minded they are, how much world they know and the maturity factor definitely matters.
And my thoughts are back to the people in my life those left, those remains and those are yet to come, and of course those I left back. The last one was the hardest one, as you know a Libra is a true lover and they allow someone to get into their heart after lot of logical analysis and tests. Even after those, this Libra has failed to find the reality of some people and get to know about them at a very later stage. I gave lot of chances to prove they are right, in fact to prove I was right about them, Alas! It didn't help sometimes too. But once it's out of mind , it's like done and dusted.
I don't hate any people or get jealous at anyone, even the ones who left me or who put me into trouble situations, coz I know to love only and I don't want to hurt anyone else. Being a human I would had done things that would have made people hurt, but nothing intentional. I never have a motive to hurt people because I respect people for who they are. But I gained a few enemies also while I was building my allies, the reason being I don't sugar coat, and it's same with anyone. I like to tell things to face, not stabbing from back. So if I stopped a relation with someone, it is for both of our's well being, as finding each other the darkest sides a number of times, won't bring any positive energy at all. Even if people try to drag me to petty issues, which is their way to let down a person, Libra is all about class and standard, there is no space for lowbrow gestures anywhere.
For those who stayed with me, I am happy that they accepted me with all my flaws, got through my tantrums and after everything they have a heart to still love and care for me. And all those who left me I am happy that they showed me the different side of this world , everything in this world can't be trusted. And for those who keeps a grudge on me still, the apprehensive chunk of people, even in my unawareness, I m glad that, for the stones you are throwing at me, God is loving me more and more, by making me better each day.
I used to say, my friends are my assets, Should I amend the statement? Haha, that's very true, some of them turned out to be liabilities though. JUST KIDDING. Being an MBA student you can expect these :P Some have been life changers, whatever be finally it turned out to be good for me. So to all those who have been once close to me or the ones still close to me and the ones yet to come, you were or are part of this Libra girl for a long spell or short, you all will be always in my thoughts and prayers and those who left don't worry, even though you won't be in my prayers, you won't be in my curse too.
Ha, the usual deviations from topic sort of thing, yes its here too. Please excuse :D
Today while walking alone through the streets, which is part of my weekend fitness, I was thinking about myself, and how much I have improved as a person from what I used to be before. I was so weak like a flower, which gets torn away in a small push of wind. Today I am strong enough to make me feel proud of myself. I do break down and cry a lot, I ever wonder my talent to come out if it soon myself. The motto I have in such situations helped me a lot. "If people left, let them, and if they stayed let them. I don't feel guilty or regretted , as when they were part of my life, my love had not even a slightest dishonesty. If they failed to understand me or of they don't care, they don't deserve my trust and love and of course they couldn't afford the precious one".
That's the reason, if you ask who is my model person, I would say none, even though I have inspired from many, I never set a goal comparing myself with another person. All I wanted to be is a better person than myself , as I said, here I am reiterating.
One of my friends once said, "Swathy, you are a Gem! that everyone desired to be their's, but you are so precious that they couldn't afford, Yes my love is one of a kind and those who got it are damn damn lucky :)
I have got mixed reviews about myself, from people about me and everything I embraced as a chance, for me to improve day by day. Even the negative comments I accepted, even though I was feeling a little irritated listening to it first. Yes its human to have both sides. But I worked hard on my negatives and I can see the change reflected. I don't mean I am a perfect person now, truth being I am no where perfect, but every day I am trying to become a better person of myself the day before. One of such comments I got is I will take the lead always, not giving chances to people with me and tries to show off. I wonder, do they mean I am a flaunt ;) No pun intended please! Of course I will take the helm, if I feel my flock doesn't have the capability to take up the driving seat yet. Otherwise I would be so glad to take a nice nap in one of the couchy seats behind, if I can trust my driver ;)
But some people were so focused in putting me down, purportedly, that they just wanted to prove me bad and envied whatever I was able to do even after going through all storms in my life which they can never even think of. Or they would be too egoistical about themselves, that they see problem in what others do. Ha the noxious ones in my life!! Even if I realized their hidden agenda too late, I don't give a dang about it anymore.
Something caught my mind just now while writing, don't know its somewhat related and thought of penning down. Most guys make use of this funny statement, that women would always have problem with another woman. Yeah, we laughed at the fun behind it. But that's not the truth. I have lot of quality friends who are women, who were not having any misery to show how much they appreciate me. Likewise, I do appreciate people with quality. Here the respect is not given, its something like earned by their character. So its not about being a man or woman is the problem, the problem is how open minded they are, how much world they know and the maturity factor definitely matters.
And my thoughts are back to the people in my life those left, those remains and those are yet to come, and of course those I left back. The last one was the hardest one, as you know a Libra is a true lover and they allow someone to get into their heart after lot of logical analysis and tests. Even after those, this Libra has failed to find the reality of some people and get to know about them at a very later stage. I gave lot of chances to prove they are right, in fact to prove I was right about them, Alas! It didn't help sometimes too. But once it's out of mind , it's like done and dusted.
I don't hate any people or get jealous at anyone, even the ones who left me or who put me into trouble situations, coz I know to love only and I don't want to hurt anyone else. Being a human I would had done things that would have made people hurt, but nothing intentional. I never have a motive to hurt people because I respect people for who they are. But I gained a few enemies also while I was building my allies, the reason being I don't sugar coat, and it's same with anyone. I like to tell things to face, not stabbing from back. So if I stopped a relation with someone, it is for both of our's well being, as finding each other the darkest sides a number of times, won't bring any positive energy at all. Even if people try to drag me to petty issues, which is their way to let down a person, Libra is all about class and standard, there is no space for lowbrow gestures anywhere.
For those who stayed with me, I am happy that they accepted me with all my flaws, got through my tantrums and after everything they have a heart to still love and care for me. And all those who left me I am happy that they showed me the different side of this world , everything in this world can't be trusted. And for those who keeps a grudge on me still, the apprehensive chunk of people, even in my unawareness, I m glad that, for the stones you are throwing at me, God is loving me more and more, by making me better each day.
I used to say, my friends are my assets, Should I amend the statement? Haha, that's very true, some of them turned out to be liabilities though. JUST KIDDING. Being an MBA student you can expect these :P Some have been life changers, whatever be finally it turned out to be good for me. So to all those who have been once close to me or the ones still close to me and the ones yet to come, you were or are part of this Libra girl for a long spell or short, you all will be always in my thoughts and prayers and those who left don't worry, even though you won't be in my prayers, you won't be in my curse too.
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