The lonely walk.

She went for a long walk in the silent night when the place was almost deserted. She put on her music and headphones walking alone through the lonely roads, enjoying every single moment. She could enjoy the breeze, the ripples in water, the scent of flowers and the cold air now solely, which she never noticed when being in others company. Others were looking surprisingly when they saw her wander around in a lonely night, but she was not bothered about others anymore.

She was always afraid of darkness and loneliness and she needed someone with her, from the time she was a kid. Whenever she wants to move somewhere, she will pick her doll and pulls her mom's hands to go along with her. Being in darkness always frightens her and she squeezes her mom's hands while walking through it, but she knows she has her protector with her now and doesn't want to worry about anything.

She always hated loneliness because of the fear of getting attacked by the ghosts she heard in stories. Don't know why, her stories had good fairies as well, but while being alone only terrifying ghosts would come to her mind. If for some reason she finds her alone in her room, when waking up from a nap she will run to find her mom and hug her so tight. Her mom could always feel her raging heartbeat. That moment she will feel like she is being protected from all those evil bodies, when she hugs her mom.

Growing up, the fairly tales stories has vanished from her mind, but being lonely was still a pain for her. She no longer is afraid of ghosts, but she always likes company and she wants one or other of her friends to be always with her. Now she walks between the walls of the home without fear, but her mind always needed someone to be always there, who can listen to everything she have to blabber. She was lucky to have friends who were always there to sit by her side and they never made her feel like she is alone.

People say, the teenage time is the best beautiful time ever in one's life, after that where life's responsibilities starts. She now knows that's very much true. She is now grown up and no more the same kid who can run to her mom when she is alone or the same girl who always had her friends to surround. She embraced every change wholeheartedly, but her hatred to loneliness was still there. Even when accepting all the changes of her life, she never knew, these changes would expect from her to be lonely too. Along with the sweetness of all changes, she had realized the bitterness of being alone. She cried , she pleaded, but no one could hear her. Yes, she is meant to be alone now, she needs to come out of her cocoon of fear and face the world confidently. At first the feeling was like tearing her heart apart. But very slowly she understood the flavor of life and the fact that every person is alone in one or other way. The best companion would be ourselves. She slowly moved from her comfort zone and emerged into a strong individual for which she was meant to be.  She couldn't believe herself first, is this I who enjoys loneliness now, how am I able to do, decide things without anyone by my side.

The realization part was sort of sweet and sad, as it reminds her of things which made her to taste loneliness, but sweet thinking "wow, no one can put me down. I am myself".  Now she lives her life for herself first and then others, because she knows that only if she is happy, she can keep others happy. So if some people still remains in her life, that is not because she cannot live alone, she has been in her bitter paths all alone, but the ones she really values in her life.

Now she is enjoying loneliness, the very thing she hated all these years. Now each step she is taking in her lonely walk, is murmuring to her ears, See you are strong now, you are strong now!

The Dilemma

Sonal is dressed up in her wedding attire, a Rajasthani lehenga, big Jhumkas, a necklace that spreads till her chest and handful of bangles. Her mehendi designs are looking awesome on her neatly sculptured hands, her large fish shaped eyes glittering in the Kajal, her dress perfectly fitting her body. Sonal has a natural way of being beautiful all the time, and now with all the make over for the wedding she looks like a princess. People coming to take a glimpse of the beautiful bride. Of course this wedding is one of a kind the city has seen. It is luxury all over, even a slight imperfection cannot be found, as her father has arranged the best event managers of the city for his daughter's big day. Everyone out there dreamed of having such a wedding.

The bride's face is all gleaming due to the lights and the jewelry, but something is missing in her eyes. Yes, she seems not happy, even after having the best of all for her wedding. Even when other people dream to have such a wedding, her mind is disturbed and she is dreaming about another world which would have made her happier than all these comforts. But what is making her feel so terrible? Is that she is going to marry a person, whom she never knew? Or is she missing someone?

Her thoughts back to her college days now, the most enjoyed days of her life and she knows it would never come back in life. The good times can only be cherished now. There was someone who really cared about her happiness, who was always there standing by her side. She is thinking about that person now, how come I lost the precious one from my life. What made her decide to throw away all happiness and to sit here like a completely made over doll? She did not get answers to any of her questions. Her thoughts are mixed up, and she is not able to think anything.

She knows one thing, she had taken the decision on favor of her parents, coz, she cannot let her parents down. But why would they put her in such a state in her life where she is all confused? Her parents always used to give the best of everything. From a kid to 22 years now,  they haven't refused anything she liked. But why now, for the most important decision in her life? They have brought her even the expensive dolls, but why now to the priceless gift she wants in her life? She is blank in her thoughts...

So started the shehnayi for wedding, and she woke up from her thoughts. Her father came calling her and holding her hands to walk her to the mandap. Her heart is all shattered even now, she is walking like a doll controlled by others. She doesn't even wear a smile on her face, she couldn't. People see the most beautiful bride walking along the mandap, holding her dad's hand and doing things what others say.

She had a glance of the person whom she is going to live with, her entire life. Other than the introduction before the wedding, she don't know anything about him. She is not worried about the future as she is still blank on her thoughts and about her decisions. Before sitting beside him in the mandap, one last thought of the person who really loved her a lot and one silent prayer to wish him all the best things in his life, a better one than herself.

Now she is Mrs. Sonal, and she is all prepared to live her new life with the person, who is a stranger now, but she hope would be the best companion she can ever get, because she believes her parents would always give her the best in her life!

Lovely lillies

Neha was sitting near to the balcony of her home, looking at the long deserted street, resting her head in the nearby pillar and taking small sips from her coffee mug, but deep inside she has fallen somewhere in her thoughts. She felt so lonely today and her mind is travelling through her pasts each one by other. Now her thoughts are concentrated to that day she still feels to be as the best of ones in her life.

I am getting dressed up in my lucky dress for the day which I think is the "D day" in my life. I am so excited thinking about the vast opportunities I am going to experience in my life forward. I am giggling in between, singing like crazy and squeezes my roomie's cheeks and started up to my new office.

So the first day is here, and today I am going to face that big day of my life. My hands and legs trembling thinking about the giant I am going to work with. In other way this is my dream come true, but I don't know why I am so tensed when I am nearing to my dream. This is the destiny which was for me and finally I am going to savor it.

The big gate is wide open to welcome the new joinees, the cars, the trucks. Stepping into the compound has given me goosebumps, a lump in my throat because of the happiness of achievement and each step I felt like very heavy and hard to move forward. I realized, my heart is getting heavy because of multiple feelings crossing over the mind. I took a long sight of the only one building there, the famous ship building. I could see another ship is going to be erected soon, as that fast the construction was going on. I was confused on terminologies and direction boards, on the front and back doors. One security staff has led me to the front door and helped me find the lobby where I waited for the HR to come and receive me. One thing caught up my eyes on my way are, the lillies all around the buildings, it is done so neatly and the lovely lillies swaying around in the wind. It was just a breath taking site. It has caught up my eyes and heart at same time, really don't know the reason why I felt a closeness to the lillies. In future I came to know why, as they were my ever time companions...

I waited very impatiently not knowing the procedures and slipping into my usual day dreaming; and then the lady came calling out my name breaking my reverie. She had a file full of sheets of paper with her, which I guessed would be my details. The HR lady walked me through the work area, where I could see cubicles, some named, some without, and very different type of meeting rooms, with names of different seas, coasts and sea explorers. Then I said in my mind, "Yeah I am in a ship now!"

After the joining formalities, I got the first asset from new company the tag with a temporary ID card, in which its engraved 'Infosys', I felt it a proud moment in my life, when I wore it first. 

First day I had nothing to do and I wandered alone the whole campus as there was not even a system or desk allocated. I could visualize different modes of this giant infrastructure, starting from concrete buildings to bird’s nests, to the big trees which made path for people to walk and giving a wholesome pleasure. There were small trysts, and I smiled inside and thinking whether I would also go through these things, the peoples laughter, their friendship and all.

Then started with projects, started the days of struggle and pain, late nights stays, the cabs and food less days. Slowly got along with everything new. Then I found myself cherishing even these struggles, when it paid back in sweet way, to see my projects going live and the thought, Oh oh my hard work is now getting experienced by the whole world.  

I had gained a lot of new friendships which has shown me different ways to perceive this world, who helped me laugh till my belly ached.  New paths, new companions, everything new and each moment enjoying to fullest, even its happiness or pain each one was an experience. Laughter and tears were equal, some surprises, very deep down hurts , some because of farewells...

Now being here for a long time now, I see this giant is like a family to me. I don't feel anything odd about it and its being part of my life. It is my identity now. This has witnessed my failures, my progressions, supported me, made me grow to the person I am now. The moments which took my breath away, the moments which made me feel I should prove myself, the first appreciation, which I hugged close to my heart. The first travel, for which my managers selected me, for the confidence they have in me. The first client visit where I have been asked to travel, my confidence was growing inside, my b’day celebrations, ages passed here. Today I am very happy to see the person I am now and thankful to my dream which carved me to the best of all I can have.

All these times there is one thing which never changed, my lovely lillies are as such, always smiling to me, and always giving company to my brooding, my crazy thoughts, my loneliness, my silent cries, my prayers, my anxieties...

Neha is back from her thoughts to her balcony taking the next sip from her coffee mug, staring to the lonely street.

Shopaholic!

Its been very long, I have been in this place, was having crazy weeks just before the so called "Peak". And just now relaxing keeping all those crazy stuffs behind and watching to see the Peak getting ready. Sorry guys, this "Peak" is an IT terminology, which means the company will get it highest sales in this period. So today I thought to take a peek ;) out of my normal schedule and put up something here, which would make my readers think a bit or give them some good laugh. 

Just that I am talking about sales and profits, one thing came to my mind is about my spending trends in shopping. I don't have much to advice or anything, but just to share my thoughts. Everyone calls me shopaholic, am I really? No I don't think so, coz I spend only if its worth :D

My shopping trend has evolved into different forms over years, over ages I would say..from mere clothing to home designs, to kitchen stuffs now. Now I am balancing between all these which is rather different than my college days. So whatever I buy I treasure it like a diamond. I am under opinion that where ever you invest money, you should make it completely useful, and worthy. My interests has also undergone a great deal of evolution from the time I was in college. Why I am taking college as starting point is because, since then it is our parents choice, rather than ours. So college is when we started buying things our own, not sure about others, but that was my experience ;)

There was a funny thing happened related to my shopping freakishness. One day I was filing for Income tax returns and it had a secret question, my favorite pass time, and I was unable to recollect the answer I gave before. I was just reading it out loud, out of my disappointment, and from a distance my friend Sandeep called out "shopping" and said what else would it be :D You don't believe, it was the right answer and I got my ITR account unlocked ;) Thanks a lot Sandeep, even if you were trying to pull my legs.

So going back to the trends in shopping, old times shopping was like getting ready and sparing an entire day out wandering through different shops to find out our favorite things. Its usually thought about as a one day event and we plan for it a month ago. Now its been very much different by having online shopping available anytime. So shopping happens through normal browsing and would help us save lot of time. But I do love the old traditional way of shopping still and for most of my clothes shopping I prefer that. For something, we really don't want to waste time on, and we get in good deals, I opt online. Mostly with kitchen accessories, the things we don't even see in shops here. So we should sensibly choose online and traditional shopping to see which suits what. I usually do a trade off between these two before planning to buy something. The key points being quality and price. As I said, I would buy things only if its worth for the price.

There was another funny talk about me spending time on retail sites. I was put in a research project for ecom sites where our primary responsibility was to find out new shopping features from sites. I was coming up with lot of new ideas and features everyday, but something was happening behind the scenes. My team has come to know, I was getting called for couriers almost twice in a week then. When they asked, I told , what can I do, I am asked to do research and it was so tempting that I couldn't stop myself from ordering. Also we need to see how the post order process would be ;) Then they were saying, Swathy is so generous doing all these for the sake of her work ;) and  if her husband comes to know about the this, he will sue the managers who has put her in this project.

Now its your turn to decide, I am shopaholic or a smart buyer? ;)

The Cook in me!

I would always say, the only thing which can never make me tired, I can go on and on trying new dishes and capturing the final view is such a proud moment. This inspiration is nothing I got at this age and it was in my blood for long. Certain things in my life has drove me now to be an active contributor, as I realized, I have something more passionate in life, which should be cared for my inner happiness. The fire to cook was from the time I was a kid, when I started playing with kitchen sets, my achan brought for me. My amma says that she recognized my talent by then, coz I was taking care of each stuff like a professional cook :P when my sis was least interested and would get bored soon :D I think I inherited it from my her only, as ancestral property. My mom is a great cook, and also had her studies focused in that area, on home science and culinary. I used to dream about the evening snacks on my way back home in bus. And anything which she feeds us her own is awesome. I remember we both sitting both sides of her to get our feed slot one after other, it was so savory. But that time there were no opportunities like now, and she just enjoyed her passion helping our taste buds.

My cooking experiments started as a school girl, and I always wished to help my mom in kitchen. As my mom knows I am amateur and can make mistakes, she always be cautious to keep me away from kitchen, as she don't wanted to end up preparing once again :D But every now and then, I intrude into her kitchen and try stuffs:P The first one among that I made myself was lemon rice. I still remember my achan trying hard, not to show the disgusting feeling :D Yeah, it was awful. But I never gave up, and I took it as a challenge, that one day I will make the most complicated dish and get an applaud from my achan :) From then it was like a determination to prove myself as a good cook, because my inner me was getting lot of satisfaction doing that.

So teenage time was when I used to take every free time to get into the kitchen and cook something. My greatest inspiration then was Sanjeev Kapoor. Till then I was under impression that women only cooks :) I always wondered how elegantly he prepares food, starting from arranging things, assembling it and the final presentation. And I guess, my process of food preparation has possessed a lot from his styles.

The latest inspiration is again a guy, you all knows "The Handsome Cook" Vikas Khanna :) Watching him is a double benefit, like watching a handsome model and the most fashionable way of cooking :P jokes apart, I am not a person who enjoys watching TV, but the cookery shows I never miss. Other inspiration is Malayalee's pride, Lakshmi Nair. She is such an awesome cook, who prepares simple to complicated ones, recipes for all :) I used to watch her show Magic oven every sundays, when I was home.

Then there were lot of experiences I had gone through, of which some of the moments I cherished in my heart and I even remember now.

One was on an Attukal Pongala day, and my mom and sis has gone for Pongala. I had stayed back as I had my term exams coming in, and for giving company to my dad. This was when I was doing my 12 board. So now I know, the Kitchen is all mine. I just took a look in the refrigerator, grabbed something, and then ideas flourished through the nerves. By noon I had prepared a full course meal, traditional though, with out anyone's help. My dad was impressed and gave a Hi Fi for my efforts :) When my mom and sis were back, they too were impressed, and then my mom knows she can give her kitchen without any worries.

I had some nice memories with my Btech friends, who used to come over at home and we had lot of fun. I always loved cooking something for them when they are home, Jee and Sindu, you would be remembering the days we were together at each others homes freaking out, and I used to stuff them with my researches ;) Jee still asks about my amma's sambar, whenever she calls me.

One with infy close friends (Ri, Meghz and Meera), the AAP party. The night out shopping and whole night cooking. The sandwiches, patties and gulab jamuns we had made, which got lot of appreciation from our team :)

Another one, that was 1 month before my wedding, when my mom and dad went out for inviting for my wedding, and the most memorable one. It was amma's birthday and she was not at home to enjoy it. I felt so sad, I couldn't do anything for her. Then my ideas began to work, I am always spontaneous with ideas, especially when giving surprises to my people. Our help chechi was there and I asked her a favor to bring me the things which I have in the list. So the idea was to prepare a full course kerala sadya, with boli and palpayasam. I don't know is it because of my passion to cook or because of my love to my amma, all the dishes came well, and I was feeling myself proud that I could do it for my mom. I remember, seeing that there was a small drop of tear in my mom's eyes, with pride, with happiness or the thought she is going to miss me after 1 month, still unknown.

After marriage, is the real professional cook came out of me. My second home was my workshop to try out all my crazy ideas, and my Mom in law, encourages me to do anything. The kitchen is all mine and she takes care of all raw materials are replinished at right time :)
Also being the elder daughter in law of family, I had got a wide range of opportunities, and each occasion, she proudly presents me as chef of the day :P

Health or Beauty Freak?

So here it goes, a beauty talk for all girls out there, not specifying beautiful girls, coz all girls are beautiful ;) excuse me guys :P Finding a mix of topics in my posts, you would be thinking, "actually what is she trying to finally convey". To tell you, my intend is very simple, coz I always try to keep things simple and balanced. I think the reason behind is being a Libra, who always wants balance. So intend here is to help all my readers on different things, which I am aware  off and they get to enjoy. Along with sharing some fun moments in my life, what if I share something that really helps someone. What to do, I am a Venus ruled, and I always love people :)

So this time, my crazy thoughts guided me to talk something about health here. The people close to me really knows, even if I say "health", my hidden agenda is always beauty, and its the beauty freak in me who does all these and prompted me to put up something like this in my blog. Everything you see here would be based on my experiences, so its quality tested in me. As I use to say, double quality assured, as my libra mind always go for a weigh balance of things and the conclusion would be one which weighted the balances right.
So sorry guys, because its based on my experiences and my thoughts, it mostly helps girls.

Also this post is especially dedicated to my dear friend Ri (Rihana), I call her Ri with love :)
She had asked me sometime back to share some health tips and exercise tips. She also had requested for shooting a video of my workout and share with her, sorry yaar, I couldn't convince anyone to get one. But don't worry, I hope the below tips can help you if you are making this part of your routine.

So let me tell you the life mantras to stay beautiful. If you ask I am perfect, then I would say, no..but I keep managing with these mantras.
So they are ; Food diet, Exercise and the most important stay happy, laugh till your stomach aches...and don't control it, as in hindi we say "jee bharke hasna"

When we talk about diet, it doesn't mean eating less or eating nothing :) We should have a balanced diet, I think most of us are bored hearing this statement from lot of people. But it is a truth!
Fruits are real blessings. They have magical powers each one with different use. One of my posts I had a mention about papaya. Its the best for your skin. You can even make a paste of it and apply as mask on your skin.When I was a kid, I hated papayas so much and I still remember my mom finding out the papayas I hid under the blankets ;)
Mango, my favorite fruit, as its king of fruits will rejuvenate you. But have a check on calories when you take it. So basically all fruits helps you to keep you fresh and live. Over usage of any fruits is also not good, so you have to use them suitably.

Oats is another best food, which will help reduce you weight and keep you stay fit. This is from my personal experience. You will not even feel light, it keeps you stay healthy too. Keep it part of your daily diet.


Next would be exercise, the daily body tonic. So it not only makes you look fit, it helps you lessen your tensions, stress too. To have a great day, you should always start with a 30 mins one. Dancing is the best exercise I have ever experienced, coz others, we would get bored very easily..but dancing on your favorite music is something which you can go on and on. I would always think, that If I could have managed a lean figure, even after having my favorite foods, I would have never gone for this workouts, because I am a lazy person. But as I told you its not only being physically fit which adds on your beauty, your mental health also matters :)

Your mind is the magic sauce for your beauty. Stay happy, and do things which you are passionate. Keep alley with people who can gain you positive thoughts. Your sleep is another factor, which should be continuous and savored :)   One important point to be made clear, you should love yourself.. or in other words, do inspire yourself :) Dreams.. yes its is the best thing to make you stay young..Don't be so serious towards yourself..be a kid sometimes..and dream about things that makes you smile..Do you know blushing will improve blood circulation and keeps you look young. So think about all those things that makes you blush ;) Think about conversations which made you laugh...laugh again on same jokes :P So its all about rallying all these troops together for the ultimate goal, "Stay Fit" or "Stay beautiful"!

I have seen an attitude in married women in India, that once married, they lost their beauty consciousness. They will live their lives for the family and would never know, growing old. Taking care of family is a very good thing to do, but finally its you who have to care yourself, coz wrinkles cannot be straightened :) at least to my knowledge.


So that's it for now. I hope you enjoyed and you would have something of these part of your routine. With lot more on the way, bye for now. Have a great week ahead!

The Masala Toast!

Everyone in my friendship circle thought, my first post would be about food, but for some reason it's changed. So here it is, a post on food itself, my passion :) I am a real foodie, but because I need a check on my diet plans, I eat less :) But I always enjoy trying different dishes for my people and would be satisfied if they enjoys. Because of my daily schedule, I am forced to wait till weekends to realize my urge for cooking.  And the girls in my gang knows how I have helped them with my simple recipes, all this while. Whenever someone gets married or moves out to a different place where they really need to cook, I am in help for them. Hope still you have the whole back up of recipes I shared with you, that made you famous before your in laws ;) (pun intended) and among that the most famous is my 28 ingredient Chicken Biriyani, which I used to share with great pride ;) So I have a whole stack of my researches and trials, but the luckiest one to come first here is "The Masala Toast"

This is not just a recipe post, as I am not a great cook and also the experience is what I want to focus here. You may have to go all through to reach the final recipe :)

The scene is Infosys campus, Trivandrum. Since I am in my current project, I never used to go to our FC as we did before. Ours was a very famous lunch gang in FC, the gang which makes most of the noise during lunch time. And I am very famous for my loud laughter ;). After a while each one has moved to different places and finally it came to and end. I really miss you girls, it was an awesome time we had :( So I started having food at my desk from then, because having food alone at FC is such a boring thing, also when young hearts are having food together in front of us :). After a while, I was getting bored with the work alone nature and I thought sitting simply in front of computer is going to make me a junk. Then I thought I would take a walk around the buildings in the evening just to make feel fresh myself. So one thing I forgot to mention in my introduction; I wish to be engaged always. I cannot sit idle at all, at least there should be someone to talk. And if you started talking with me its gone, I am never short of topics while talking. You would be thinking what a hyper creature I am :)

Then I have started a new habit of having papaya juice for evening and my evening snack buddy is Varsha, she is my team mate too. To girls - papaya juice is very good for skin, its good to have this habit :)
Everyday she used to buy something, so that she wont need to stay hungry if she has to stay late. One such day, we have found a very different dish on the menu board of one of our vendors. So my evening snack buddy was hungry very much and she ordered one for her. I was having my usual course Papaya juice! Then she told, swathy chechi try this one its really nice. So I had a bit of it just to know what these guys are stuffing inside that's making it a wonderful toast. It was. She was right. The crispness of the bread was so right and the stuffing was enough dried. It was sort of fusion, western toast in Indian masala stuffing, great minds idea. Hats off to you guys.

I have a capability with foods, that I can guess the ingredients which went inside the dish when I taste it. I think most of the people passionate towards cooking has. But I can just guess for simple dishes. So there it started, my "Khoj" for the ingredients and my passion to try it one day.


So here goes the recipe for 2 toasts, which I tried for my little ones lunch. I couldn't manage to take a pic of it, as was in a hurry to get his lunch ready. Will add next time I tries it out.

I had a different version of what we got there. I had cheese stocked, and I stuffed that too, to make it exciting for him when he opens his box (he is very particular about food, and also a foodie like me. He always talks about his wish to become a chef and the best motivator of my culinary skills ;) ). Its so simple and your little one would enjoy it, for sure.



Breads - 2 slices (brown bread is best. Encourage your kids to use it)
Cheese - 1 slices (optional)

For Stuffing

Boiled mashed potato - 1 small
Veggies - Onion, Green peas, carrot, beans, anything you want to use, even beetroot will go well with this, all these chopped fine  - 1/2 cup
Kasuri Methi - 2 pinches
Garam Masala (I used kebab masala, so it will have little amount of all masala..chilly, turmeric etc)-1tsp
Oil to saute
Salt to taste

Preparation

Boil oil in a pan and sputter mustard seeds.  Add all veggies and saute for sometime, till it becomes soft. No need to overcook. Add the mashed potatoes, salt, kasuri methi leaves and saute for a min. Then add the masala and again saute for a min, your masala should be dry enough for stuffing.
Remove from pan and let it cool down completely.

Arrange one bread  and then the masala should be spread evenly to cover the entire bread surface, and cheeze slice on top of it. Finally the second slice of bread. Press it a little and place it in your toaster.
You can have a tawa also to do the toasting part.

I think these simple recipes can make someones lives simple, especially mom's of school going kids :) Anyway my motivator was very much impressed and got a very big appreciation from him.

My mental drive to drive :)

So let me tell you something. I am not that proficient in this, and still learning how to get the confidence on being on road alone, with a car :D Although I used to drive before my marriage, for past 7 years the skill is been dead. You would be thinking girl at this age doesn't know to drive, yes of course, I never thought I would need to know these 7 years.

So very recently got this idea, "How it would be if I start it again", and now situation too demands as my Micheal Schumacher (my hubby, he hates calling him by that name, he says he has his own identity ;) ),  is far from home for his job and my boy Gauthu always wish to travel with me especially when his dad is out.

So the start was unanticipated, here is what happened. We had a late night trip planned to his home and when it was almost 3 kms away from home, my hubby asked me, whether I am giving a try. This time I was so firm on my decision and thought would impress him. At night 2 30 AM, so my driving classes started again. I would say the most adventurous of my life yet and most enjoyed one :)

So our plan was to have weekend driving classes from then. Next morning my tutor has come, but again my hubby was sitting at my side, and tutor in back seat. Driving with him would be a tough task, as he wants to do things so fast, changing from each gear to next, and he was crying, shouting all the time. Even if it was sort of whirlwind, I enjoyed each moment, may be because this time I was so determined. So for the trip, we selected a rural place, as it was first time after a long. You can imagine roads in Trivandrum and that too rural. The roads were uneven and had cow pats all over and I handled it very well by not even missing a single one ;). The deal was to get the car washed once we are home :D

The journey had two funny things, one with a bike going in front, has stopped without any sign to answer his mobile. I was clueless on what can be done now, and my hubby cried out, brake…Otherwise the guy would have landed in nearby plot with his bike :D I wished to step out and tell him, that he should obey traffic rules, then stopped myself.

The second one was a bus which was coming from opposite direction. I have a theory in driving, we should very much respect big vehicles like bus or lorry and when it comes opposite, we should stop and give space for them to go :D. As I told, we have been driving through roads which were very much narrow. So same thing I did here too, I stopped my car a few feet in front of bus, and my car engine went off due to slowness and now you can image, “The whole road was blocked in seconds”. I knew what to do, I have to start it again, but my mind was a black hole then, I cried out “what to do now cheta”. He thought he would need to come and start it, but I got a trigger from inside and started and all was back to normal again :) and there it is, my first appreciation for driving from him, for handling the situation well :) 

So my confidence has increased now and I hope, one day I would be able to drive with out any dread. Now I am looking forward for each weekend to go drive again!

introducing me

So all new to the concept of blogging, apart from the experience I had in my college days, just to understand what's blogging. Today it was another instinct in my life to start up something here.

I don't have any core knowledge to share, so this would be more of like random thoughts of mine. As I always say to my friends, I am interested in so many things in this world that keeps me busy and stops me in focusing a single thing and I am yet to find out what is the real passion in my life. As the quote, "jack of all trades, master of none" :-)

My hobbies are reading novels, cooking which I think is my passion too, dress designing and sometimes designing cards for my close ones special days. I am a software engineer by profession and I have envisioned my future in that, and I moulded my passions surrounding it. Coz My belief is anything which is done with passion would be fabulous. And I would say I am doing good in my profession because of just this thought.

I am not sure on how active I would be here, may be this is another one such crazy interest of mine, or you can see a bunch of foods, books or nature photography, designs piled up here.

Thanks to all my dear friends & family for supporting me through, and always had an ear to lend for my worries, jokes and never getting bored by my non stop talking. Some of them are really close to my heart, who have been with me through my hard times, my success and whenever I succeeded, enjoyed as their own. I have learnt a lot from them and I am really indebted to them for the person I am now.

So it's lot for an introduction, and now you know I am a big talker. As one of my friend says, "dangerously talkative" ;-)
Hope this space won't remain vacant after this post. Thanks to my true friend to get me out of the cocoon of work alone. I don't know this helps me with pursuing my dreams or finding out my real passion. But one thing for sure, now I have a different world than work, which I think is a stepping stone to explore much of myself, which I have never tried before.