I came across her diary and one entry made me to stop and go through it. The title was a little interesting to me, and I decided to take a sneak peak, even though reading a personal diary isn't a good thing.
The realisation upto her is so beautiful and true that I couldn't stop myself from sharing, keeping all my ethics on not disclosing the characters.
"Realization is most of the times hard, when it comes to relations. But I am lucky to have both sides of it at the same time. One side of my mind was drenched and destroyed just like after a flood and other part was pleasant like a blooming garden. The realisation that took me out from my fantasy world to reality. I was living all these while trusting a fake story, which was made up by humans around to satisfy their needs. I wasn't even knowing there is a real world and reality about my existence as the fake world looked so beautiful and was hoping to live it for ever. But time reveals what is genuine, what is fake; what all promises are kept, what all were just words, where real love was, and where I am used; yes it's heart breaking.
I wasn't having a hope to get back my reality as I have gone miles and miles away from it, living my life in the dream world. But I was wrong, the reality, the true love has the power to forgive everything. The realisation of fake put me down, and I sat on the floor crying , as I know there is nothing left over, as fake was laughing at me thinking it fooled me and I knew going back to reality is no chance now. But the real love, the genuineness was still there waiting for me to get out of her fantasy dream and take her hand. Today I realized what was the dark which blinded me, emotionally fooled me, used me and the light of love who forwarded the hands to pick me up when I fell. The promises of fake went all broken, coz when I had to go through the hardest day of my life yet, fake just ran away.
Now I am trying to tie the broken knots of past and realizing that every argument was an escapade an excuse. I was ignored, but the fake words deceived me and I went on trusting every word. I feel bad that I was used as a tool for someone's glory, but I feel contented that I could learn a lesson, the toughest one in my life and now I have cleared it too. "
She concludes her story by these words, "yes I have trust issues, coz what we see is not true always. A smiling face can turn to be a devil's whose intention is to drink your blood. And trust issues is what I gained to be part of this fake world, the ultimate realization".
