When heart is caught up in a maze!

As a pre note : The below said things are not only taken from my life, but from situations I see around, so don’t relate it to people close to me or ones ever been part of my life, and this is not to hurt anyone’s emotions, but just to support strong women :)

I am trying to think through a Woman's heart when it is all caught up in a maze. How bad it can be, what all feelings and emotions can run through her mind, confused on what all is happening around. As always I am taking the role of third person view of situations of a woman going through the pain and my justified thoughts for every situation. This is just an effort to understand what women go through of course the strong Women I see around. And I want to support all women around me, only the "Strong one's", men can have a question here why so gender biased, all women are not good as it seems. They also breaks heart. I know, I feel ashamed thinking of such women who are mean, with cheap intentions, coward, immature and who don't care about others pain. They always need a men to support and not at all guilty of using the men and cheating behind him. Being a women of quality such things makes me feel disgusting about such woman and they are shame and biggest threat to the  entire Women world. Over to the story of a real woman.

"She is beautiful", when I say this do you think she is the one with perfect shape and perfect face without wrinkles, then you are mistaken. She has wrinkles of all the laughter she had in her life, scars of all pain she went through, dark circles of sleepless nights crying loud, she is not in perfect shape; so what made her beautiful. It is her heart which is so beautiful even after carrying lot of bandaids of breakups and sorrys she had to acknowledge and still been the most beautiful one. Those eyes speaks a lot, and Men can see lust may be, but pure love is very hard to be seen and felt. She started thinking this way!

Today my mind has tons of things to write, but is it because that I m confused on which topic among them to think about, I am stuck or is it because my life seems to be at a halting point after a lot of running, events and hectic days? Whatever be, even if it’s is a halt she was confident that won’t be too long a one. She said herself, "I will rise dear like a Phoenix bird from all that which tried to let me down"- she promised herself. I am made to win and there is a lot of effort put by genuine people to carve the person I am today, and I cannot let their efforts down for some wild wind which tried to pull me down to the earth. My wings will again take shape and I will fly high. This tough time will go eventually, even if it gave me many abrasions; I will come out of it much stronger, that nothing can ever stop me. She whispered to her throbbing heart.

The questions popping up in her mind, am I too naive, but I am so energetic and my Aura makes people live. Was I bad in finding what is right and wrong for me or was it like, I trusted people around thinking they are fair and transparent like me, most of the time it’s not. She witnessed something so scary, the real face of some people, and it hurt her coz she never wanted to see that face, all these while how did they manage to show the other sweet face of them which she believed to be theirs. Not even a hunch on how bad it can be. She told herself, no this is not the person I trusted, not the one I loved. This is some other person in front of me, coz she was not willing to believe that scary face is of her loved one. Is that the one she thought as her own, has fooled her and was taking advantage ? But when she raised voice, it is arrogance, they didn't know it wasn't she speaking then, it is the noise made by her screaming heart.

She wrote a quote which just popped up in her mind in her diary:

"I tried to find the best thing ever happened to me in others when it was away from me, but forgot the fact that best is only one!
And quality in people is very scarce now a days."

It is not always the heartbreak caused by lost love when a Woman writes down her pain, but there can be many other reasons than it, may be she is confused, like what step to take next, like a way to relief her wavering mind, and when things get changed from what she expected. It’s not an easy world, everyday new challenges, people changing, wolves in sheeps skin, so lot a woman with pure hearts is facing every other day.  They can be weak crying on it and leaning on someone, but strong women won’t play victim, they just walk away when they feel unwanted, and let karma play with them the actual game. We should not even think about such people, it is smart to ignore. One thing I always wonder is how people plays with others emotions. But truth cannot hide for long and she may fall down on the floor. The Pheonix in her is still live and she will sprung open her wings and fly high, where the people tried to let her down cannot even dream to reach. Her genuine love will see that with filled eyes, yes with tears of happiness that his efforts didn't go waste and she preserved the light from dying! What else she can give him back. That's what he wants, the most beautiful way to pay him back for his support and prayers. Yes, he meant it lady; " I have your back, I will pick you up whenever you fall", even if he is not around, those words are enough for you to live thousands years and keep you motivated. 

To all women out there, I would like to quote the lyrics of this song:

Don't doubt it, don't doubt
Oh, oh, oh, oh
You know it, you know it
Still rise
Just fight it, just fight it
Don't be surprised, I will still rise

Her Diary!!!

I came across her diary and one entry made me to stop and go through it. The title was a little interesting to me, and I decided to take a sneak peak, even though reading a personal diary isn't a good thing.

The realisation upto her is so beautiful and true that I couldn't stop myself from sharing, keeping all my ethics on not disclosing the characters.

"Realization is most of the times hard, when it comes to relations. But I am lucky to have both sides of it at the same time. One side of my mind was drenched and destroyed just like after a flood and other part was pleasant like a blooming garden. The realisation that took me out from my fantasy world to reality. I was living all these while trusting a fake story, which was made up by humans around to satisfy their needs. I wasn't even knowing there is a real world and reality about my existence as the fake world looked so beautiful and was hoping to live it for ever. But time reveals what is genuine, what is fake; what all promises are kept, what all were just words, where real love was, and where I am used; yes it's heart breaking.

I wasn't having a hope to get back my reality as I have gone miles and miles away from it, living my life in the dream world. But I was wrong, the reality, the true love has the power to forgive everything. The realisation of fake put me down, and I sat on the floor crying , as I know there is nothing left over, as fake was laughing at me thinking it fooled me and I knew going back to reality is no chance now. But the real love, the genuineness was still there waiting for me to get out of her fantasy dream and take her hand. Today I realized what was the dark which blinded me, emotionally fooled me, used me and the light of love who forwarded the hands to pick me up when I fell. The promises of fake went all broken, coz when I had to go through the hardest day of my life yet, fake just ran away.

Now I am trying to tie the broken knots of past and realizing that every argument was an escapade an excuse. I was ignored, but the fake words deceived me and I went on trusting every word. I feel bad that I was used as a tool for someone's glory, but I feel contented that I could learn a lesson, the toughest one in my life and now I have cleared it too. "

She concludes her story by these words, "yes I have trust issues, coz what we see is not true always. A smiling face can turn to be a devil's whose intention is to drink your blood. And trust issues is what I gained to be part of this fake world, the ultimate realization".