She went for a long walk in the silent night when the place was almost deserted. She put on her music and headphones walking alone through the lonely roads, enjoying every single moment. She could enjoy the breeze, the ripples in water, the scent of flowers and the cold air now solely, which she never noticed when being in others company. Others were looking surprisingly when they saw her wander around in a lonely night, but she was not bothered about others anymore.
She was always afraid of darkness and loneliness and she needed someone with her, from the time she was a kid. Whenever she wants to move somewhere, she will pick her doll and pulls her mom's hands to go along with her. Being in darkness always frightens her and she squeezes her mom's hands while walking through it, but she knows she has her protector with her now and doesn't want to worry about anything.
She always hated loneliness because of the fear of getting attacked by the ghosts she heard in stories. Don't know why, her stories had good fairies as well, but while being alone only terrifying ghosts would come to her mind. If for some reason she finds her alone in her room, when waking up from a nap she will run to find her mom and hug her so tight. Her mom could always feel her raging heartbeat. That moment she will feel like she is being protected from all those evil bodies, when she hugs her mom.
Growing up, the fairly tales stories has vanished from her mind, but being lonely was still a pain for her. She no longer is afraid of ghosts, but she always likes company and she wants one or other of her friends to be always with her. Now she walks between the walls of the home without fear, but her mind always needed someone to be always there, who can listen to everything she have to blabber. She was lucky to have friends who were always there to sit by her side and they never made her feel like she is alone.
People say, the teenage time is the best beautiful time ever in one's life, after that where life's responsibilities starts. She now knows that's very much true. She is now grown up and no more the same kid who can run to her mom when she is alone or the same girl who always had her friends to surround. She embraced every change wholeheartedly, but her hatred to loneliness was still there. Even when accepting all the changes of her life, she never knew, these changes would expect from her to be lonely too. Along with the sweetness of all changes, she had realized the bitterness of being alone. She cried , she pleaded, but no one could hear her. Yes, she is meant to be alone now, she needs to come out of her cocoon of fear and face the world confidently. At first the feeling was like tearing her heart apart. But very slowly she understood the flavor of life and the fact that every person is alone in one or other way. The best companion would be ourselves. She slowly moved from her comfort zone and emerged into a strong individual for which she was meant to be. She couldn't believe herself first, is this I who enjoys loneliness now, how am I able to do, decide things without anyone by my side.
The realization part was sort of sweet and sad, as it reminds her of things which made her to taste loneliness, but sweet thinking "wow, no one can put me down. I am myself". Now she lives her life for herself first and then others, because she knows that only if she is happy, she can keep others happy. So if some people still remains in her life, that is not because she cannot live alone, she has been in her bitter paths all alone, but the ones she really values in her life.
Now she is enjoying loneliness, the very thing she hated all these years. Now each step she is taking in her lonely walk, is murmuring to her ears, See you are strong now, you are strong now!
She was always afraid of darkness and loneliness and she needed someone with her, from the time she was a kid. Whenever she wants to move somewhere, she will pick her doll and pulls her mom's hands to go along with her. Being in darkness always frightens her and she squeezes her mom's hands while walking through it, but she knows she has her protector with her now and doesn't want to worry about anything.
She always hated loneliness because of the fear of getting attacked by the ghosts she heard in stories. Don't know why, her stories had good fairies as well, but while being alone only terrifying ghosts would come to her mind. If for some reason she finds her alone in her room, when waking up from a nap she will run to find her mom and hug her so tight. Her mom could always feel her raging heartbeat. That moment she will feel like she is being protected from all those evil bodies, when she hugs her mom.
Growing up, the fairly tales stories has vanished from her mind, but being lonely was still a pain for her. She no longer is afraid of ghosts, but she always likes company and she wants one or other of her friends to be always with her. Now she walks between the walls of the home without fear, but her mind always needed someone to be always there, who can listen to everything she have to blabber. She was lucky to have friends who were always there to sit by her side and they never made her feel like she is alone.
People say, the teenage time is the best beautiful time ever in one's life, after that where life's responsibilities starts. She now knows that's very much true. She is now grown up and no more the same kid who can run to her mom when she is alone or the same girl who always had her friends to surround. She embraced every change wholeheartedly, but her hatred to loneliness was still there. Even when accepting all the changes of her life, she never knew, these changes would expect from her to be lonely too. Along with the sweetness of all changes, she had realized the bitterness of being alone. She cried , she pleaded, but no one could hear her. Yes, she is meant to be alone now, she needs to come out of her cocoon of fear and face the world confidently. At first the feeling was like tearing her heart apart. But very slowly she understood the flavor of life and the fact that every person is alone in one or other way. The best companion would be ourselves. She slowly moved from her comfort zone and emerged into a strong individual for which she was meant to be. She couldn't believe herself first, is this I who enjoys loneliness now, how am I able to do, decide things without anyone by my side.
The realization part was sort of sweet and sad, as it reminds her of things which made her to taste loneliness, but sweet thinking "wow, no one can put me down. I am myself". Now she lives her life for herself first and then others, because she knows that only if she is happy, she can keep others happy. So if some people still remains in her life, that is not because she cannot live alone, she has been in her bitter paths all alone, but the ones she really values in her life.
Now she is enjoying loneliness, the very thing she hated all these years. Now each step she is taking in her lonely walk, is murmuring to her ears, See you are strong now, you are strong now!
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