Anu is back from office after a very crazy hectic day. She longed for a sleep very much and did not feel like doing even her evening chores. She made some coffee, took some random sips and hit the bed cuddling her pillow. As she was about to catch her sleep, her thoughts distracted her and she is now thinking about her childhood memories. First she tried to push it far away, so that she could get some sleep. But then she went on thinking each and every moment of it. She started thinking about her childhood friend Reenu's doll which she still loves the most and misses a lot. She went on thinking about the doll which was her childhood crush.
"I always wonder, how lucky she is to have the doll which I love the most. We feel someone lucky if they have something which we desire the most. I peep into her cupboard and plays with it whenever I could. I was so much jealous of her having that. But my jealousy was not harmful, I have never done anything intentionally to hurt her, because I like her and don't want to see her hurt. I am someone who cannot see others tears, so even if I am hurt, I don't want to see tears on her eyes.
It was one a rainy day I got to see the doll in her arms. First I took it, played with it, as I do with my toys. But when she took it with her, I felt a pain in my heart, I felt like I miss the doll. Why has it captured me so much, which any other toy couldn't do. I am still unaware. I wished, I could have it with me all the time, but I knew that was impossible. How can you get others things, and I know I should not wish for someone else possessions. I felt a growing possessiveness towards it, again my odd thought isn't it? How can I be possessive to something which is not even my possession. I cried a lot everyday, missing it so much and knowing the hardest truth, that I wont get it. I wonder, why I love it so much. I tried to be away from it, but couldn't.
Days and years passed. I hoped to get over the intense desire about it, but I could only see the intensity growing. I vowed to her in my heart, that I will never steel the doll from her cupboard anymore, because I feel very bad thinking about her, she totally unaware of my desire. I have accepted the fact and moved on. But my love towards the doll has never lessened. Its growing each day and I know that nothing else can make me happy like it.
I know, even the doll won't understand about my feelings towards it. But I gave a silent promise to the doll, that "I wont have any other doll so dear to me like you. You will always be my treasured doll in my heart, even if you can never be mine."
And I will keep that promise till my end!"
Anu fell asleep with eyes full, cuddling her pillow even tighter, who was always there to witness her tears.
"I always wonder, how lucky she is to have the doll which I love the most. We feel someone lucky if they have something which we desire the most. I peep into her cupboard and plays with it whenever I could. I was so much jealous of her having that. But my jealousy was not harmful, I have never done anything intentionally to hurt her, because I like her and don't want to see her hurt. I am someone who cannot see others tears, so even if I am hurt, I don't want to see tears on her eyes.
It was one a rainy day I got to see the doll in her arms. First I took it, played with it, as I do with my toys. But when she took it with her, I felt a pain in my heart, I felt like I miss the doll. Why has it captured me so much, which any other toy couldn't do. I am still unaware. I wished, I could have it with me all the time, but I knew that was impossible. How can you get others things, and I know I should not wish for someone else possessions. I felt a growing possessiveness towards it, again my odd thought isn't it? How can I be possessive to something which is not even my possession. I cried a lot everyday, missing it so much and knowing the hardest truth, that I wont get it. I wonder, why I love it so much. I tried to be away from it, but couldn't.
Days and years passed. I hoped to get over the intense desire about it, but I could only see the intensity growing. I vowed to her in my heart, that I will never steel the doll from her cupboard anymore, because I feel very bad thinking about her, she totally unaware of my desire. I have accepted the fact and moved on. But my love towards the doll has never lessened. Its growing each day and I know that nothing else can make me happy like it.
I know, even the doll won't understand about my feelings towards it. But I gave a silent promise to the doll, that "I wont have any other doll so dear to me like you. You will always be my treasured doll in my heart, even if you can never be mine."
And I will keep that promise till my end!"
Anu fell asleep with eyes full, cuddling her pillow even tighter, who was always there to witness her tears.
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